This blogging thing is a bit strange, I have not written anything for weeks, because I have not had the time, or the inclination.
That’s the problem with cathartic writing you only write when you need to, but as soon as you put a URL out, people expect……..
So whilst this entry will give you a catch-up on the last 6 weeks, it will start with how I am feeling right now.
The answer is flat.
The truth is I don’t know why, I am missing my Mum (who I saw 7 hours ago), my Dad who I never seem to see, and who feels so far away, and my baby sister who I don’t see often enough. I want to cry, or sleep, or scream, but want I really need is sleep. At least I am at home with Belle, that makes things better.
It is so nice to be home, I miss Belle when I am away, and I cant wait until our holiday. I know most people think the driving is excessive, but it is great to spend time with Belle and be able to have random chats.
So enough of this self indulgent crap, what has been going on in my world in the last few weeks.
I guess I should work out what was the last thing I wrote, but to tell the truth I cant be bothered.
So want has been happening.
It falls into 3 categories:
Work – Good
Cricket – Mixed
Stuff – Who knows
Work
So I am almost 2 months into the new job, and it feels like we are heading in the right direction. The new structure is bedding down, I have some strong people, and a clear idea of what must be done. The frustration is how long it takes to get things changed. But we hit month ones targets, I expect to hit month two, and that only leads month three to achieve Q1. I am enjoying the sales and product elements of the role, and it is nice to discover that all the things I thought should happen in my previous roles, do make the differences I expected. It will take some time, but we will get there.
The biggest change has been the amount of time I am having to spend with customers. For a shy yokel, that is a big challenge, especially when you have to sell the future, the vision, a bit of yourself and a large chunk of deliverable. By the end of August I will have spent more time with different customers in this role, than in all my non delivery roles put together.
Its tough when the success of your business relies on whether people buy you, not your team or your products. I can do ‘jazz hands’ in front of a crowd, but I am not the person for people to buy into.
That being said I appear to be able to fool most of the people most of the time, so maybe we will get away with it?
Cricket
Its 2020 time, or t20 as it appears to have been renames. In world cup games, I can say that my teams lost every game I saw live. In the domestic league the Sabers have qualified for the quarters with a game in hand, and have generally played well.
The weather has been an arse, especially the last two days, where the game I went to was rained off, and the game I decided not to go to due to weather was one of the best games of the season. Hay-ho!
Stuff
I have been trying to be sensible, that has involved missing two concerts that I had tickets for, being drive, rather than driving, and attending a family do.
The concerts are annoying, and feel like a waste of money, but I guess helped stop my cold becoming to bad, being driven meant I was able to see War of the Worlds live again, which was great and the family event was not as bad as I expected.
The truth is I went because it was for my Aunt, who I am very fond of and who I wanted to see, however I was very uncomfortable in this social setting, left feeling less of me. I cant do small talk, I cant do talking to people who I don’t really know. The reality is it was a nice meal, my aunt was great, and I think she had a great time, and I was able to hide and look after my granny. The frustration is looking after granny ended up with people thinking I was good, when really I am a fraud. I am glad no one noticed, and hope that people understand my failing. I love AL, UJ and Granny and would not want to disappoint them, but I am not what people think.
I have also met someone who seemed nice, proved to be false, hurt one I love, but might not be to different to me.
So isn’t life great!?
Moving forward
The next couple weeks is more customer visits, month end, and forecasting and then my holiday, and that is what I am looking forward to most. I cant wait to return to Venice, and Rome should be go too!
That’s the problem with cathartic writing you only write when you need to, but as soon as you put a URL out, people expect……..
So whilst this entry will give you a catch-up on the last 6 weeks, it will start with how I am feeling right now.
The answer is flat.
The truth is I don’t know why, I am missing my Mum (who I saw 7 hours ago), my Dad who I never seem to see, and who feels so far away, and my baby sister who I don’t see often enough. I want to cry, or sleep, or scream, but want I really need is sleep. At least I am at home with Belle, that makes things better.
It is so nice to be home, I miss Belle when I am away, and I cant wait until our holiday. I know most people think the driving is excessive, but it is great to spend time with Belle and be able to have random chats.
So enough of this self indulgent crap, what has been going on in my world in the last few weeks.
I guess I should work out what was the last thing I wrote, but to tell the truth I cant be bothered.
So want has been happening.
It falls into 3 categories:
Work – Good
Cricket – Mixed
Stuff – Who knows
Work
So I am almost 2 months into the new job, and it feels like we are heading in the right direction. The new structure is bedding down, I have some strong people, and a clear idea of what must be done. The frustration is how long it takes to get things changed. But we hit month ones targets, I expect to hit month two, and that only leads month three to achieve Q1. I am enjoying the sales and product elements of the role, and it is nice to discover that all the things I thought should happen in my previous roles, do make the differences I expected. It will take some time, but we will get there.
The biggest change has been the amount of time I am having to spend with customers. For a shy yokel, that is a big challenge, especially when you have to sell the future, the vision, a bit of yourself and a large chunk of deliverable. By the end of August I will have spent more time with different customers in this role, than in all my non delivery roles put together.
Its tough when the success of your business relies on whether people buy you, not your team or your products. I can do ‘jazz hands’ in front of a crowd, but I am not the person for people to buy into.
That being said I appear to be able to fool most of the people most of the time, so maybe we will get away with it?
Cricket
Its 2020 time, or t20 as it appears to have been renames. In world cup games, I can say that my teams lost every game I saw live. In the domestic league the Sabers have qualified for the quarters with a game in hand, and have generally played well.
The weather has been an arse, especially the last two days, where the game I went to was rained off, and the game I decided not to go to due to weather was one of the best games of the season. Hay-ho!
Stuff
I have been trying to be sensible, that has involved missing two concerts that I had tickets for, being drive, rather than driving, and attending a family do.
The concerts are annoying, and feel like a waste of money, but I guess helped stop my cold becoming to bad, being driven meant I was able to see War of the Worlds live again, which was great and the family event was not as bad as I expected.
The truth is I went because it was for my Aunt, who I am very fond of and who I wanted to see, however I was very uncomfortable in this social setting, left feeling less of me. I cant do small talk, I cant do talking to people who I don’t really know. The reality is it was a nice meal, my aunt was great, and I think she had a great time, and I was able to hide and look after my granny. The frustration is looking after granny ended up with people thinking I was good, when really I am a fraud. I am glad no one noticed, and hope that people understand my failing. I love AL, UJ and Granny and would not want to disappoint them, but I am not what people think.
I have also met someone who seemed nice, proved to be false, hurt one I love, but might not be to different to me.
So isn’t life great!?
Moving forward
The next couple weeks is more customer visits, month end, and forecasting and then my holiday, and that is what I am looking forward to most. I cant wait to return to Venice, and Rome should be go too!
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